Set The Tone For M.E.E.

It’s 5am on a Friday and I’m wondering why I can’t go back to sleep.  My husband and I had decided to drink some wine the night before as we watched the NBA Playoffs.  This was nothing unusual for us as we’ve come along way from the drinkers that we once were in our college years and mid-20s. Needless to say, we both wanted something stronger after managing the attitudes of our 2-year-old twins and trying to keep up with our “curious about how everything in the world works” 5-year-old.  All girls by the way. 🤦🏾‍♀️

So, what’s the first thing anyone does when they can’t sleep?  Drink some water and use the bathroom.  🤷🏾‍♀️ Yep, that’s what I did.  Yes, my phone was with me.  🙄

I attempted to look at Facebook, but then my phone stopped me.  FREAKIN’ SMART PHONE! 🤬 I had forgotten that I used the settings in Facebook to manage how often I used the app so that I could stop spending so much time at night reading about other people’s problems.  It was supposed to allow me time to figure out my own.  GO FIGURE!

After checking the scores of the game that I had fallen asleep on (thanks to the wine) I figured there was no need for me to click on YouTube or any other app that would keep me in the bathroom longer than necessary.  My bed was waiting for me to return, and I needed to get as much sleep as possible in order to have energy for my girls later.  But God had other plans.

Each sleeping position was more uncomfortable than the previous one as I tossed and turned.  I know that my husband was only half sleep because of me, but I wasn’t about to spark a conversation about my feelings when I didn’t even know where to begin.  There was absolutely nothing on my mind besides trying to go back to sleep.  Until …

A glimpse of light peaked through our bedroom curtains.  This was a big deal because not only had it been storming on and off the last few days, but our curtains are a dark brown color to help keep our room nice and dim for sleeping.  When I saw that light, my mind went CRAZY. 🤯

“What am I doing with my life?  Where do I see myself in the next 5 years?  How can I make adjustments to reach my goals?  What are my goals exactly?  Who do I need to talk to in order to get what I want?  What do I really want?  Who do I need to meet?  How can I put myself in position to get the answers to all of my questions?  Why am I being so hard on myself?  When am I going to feel satisfied enough to relax?”

I am a very spiritual person.  Not so much religious, but spiritual (believe it or not, there is a difference).  So, I began to ask God to reveal to me what it is that I truly want out of life, and what I feel has a major hold on me.

First, I had to weed out all of the little things that are more so complaints rather than actual problems (ie: too many dishes in the sink at night, random stickiness on the floor after I’ve mopped, not enough room in the refrigerator for the amount of leftovers we have because no one is ever hungry for anything but snacks).  Typical #MomLife right?

The one real problem I have is something that millions of people can relate to.  We lose sleep over it.  We make plans to combat it but never follow through.  Sometimes we try to forget about it until we get a call from a random number with an automated voice reminding us of our debt to society.  From student loans to medical bills and credit cards.  One issue, two words: Financial Stability.

I sound like a broken record when I bring this up to my husband.  He is the sole provider in our household, and I am grateful to have married well in that sense.  Love aside, he handles his business and makes sure that all needs are met.  We are so blessed to be in our second house (an upgrade after having the twins), both cars are paid off, and our big girl is able to partake in martial arts as an extracurricular activity.  He’s a #BlackMan by the way. 😏

But he knows who he married.  He has met my mother and understands that I was raised to be able to think and do for myself.  Aside from that, he knows that there is something inside of me that MUST do something to assist with financial situations that I help create.  I have never been, nor saw myself as a gold-digger.  I believe that hard work pays off, and I definitely want to be an example of that for my daughters.  So, what now?

Well, nothing.  It seems that by going off on a rant in my own mind that I came to realize how grateful I am for the exact position that I am in at this very moment, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

I’ve worked with other people’s children for years from childcare to the Department of Children and Families (DCF) and I have given up being paid to ensure the health and safety of other people’s children in order to educate, nurture, and protect my own.  I am able to give my daughters what I noticed most, if not all the children I have come in contact with over the years, were missing.  Not just a mom, but a mom who has time to listen, pay attention and create experiences without having to request time off from someone else.

Some days are easy.  We coast through with fun activities, laughter, and dancing.  Most days are very difficult with constant arguing, consequences, and tears.  But the past 2 years have been a learning experience for all of us.  The growth shows from my husband to the youngest twin.  Our bonds are stronger than ever and the knowledge that is being transferred on a day-to-day basis is more remarkable than I could have ever imagined.

I recall playing school with my sister and cousins as a child and being a leader in youth groups at church as a teenager.  Seeing how good it made them feel when they did something right or felt like they belonged, made me want every child to feel that way (as if I weren’t a child myself). And I thought that by being a case manager, or a teacher that it would be enough.  But it wasn’t.

When you are working for someone, there are rules in place that limit how much you can do or how far you are able to go in order to give a child that feeling.  Yes, you get paid for it.  But after having my first-born and realizing that everything that I was trying to give to another toddler is exactly what she needed, I sacrificed getting paid monetarily for the reward of hearing “Mommy, when I grow up, I want to start my own business like you.”  🥰

See, my husband knew I wouldn’t give up.  He expected me not to give up.  God made me a special type of way.  While I long for Financial Stability, money does not excite me.  My purpose is bigger than that.  My message is bigger than that.  And by helping my own children to learn and thrive in a world where so many children (especially #childrenofcolor) are expected to fail, I will gain knowledge and insight on how to help other parents with their children as well.

So, I got up out of my bed and asked God to give me the words to write in this blog post.  I also asked him to give me the energy to deal with these busy girls I’ve been blessed with. 😂

With this blog I will set the tone for a new chapter in my life.  I will not sulk in my wonders of “Who? What? Where? When? Why? or How?” But I will simply just be MEE as I intend to help Motivate, Educate and Elevate the lives of children and families however I can.

DISCLAIMER: I would like to personally give a shout out to all professions working with children (teachers, case workers, coaches, mentors, physicians, etc.).  I believe you are often taken for granted and undervalued.  You deserve your flowers.

Salute to all moms who work or stay at home (#SAHM) because only God knows the energy we use on a regular basis.

To the dads who have chosen to be a part of their children’s lives, you are appreciated.  Especially the Black dads (who don’t get enough credit for being an example to their children); I see you.

Traditional School vs. BHM

It amazes me how political the traditional school system is.  But let’s break it down before we get into the meat of this post.

What is politics?

When I looked it up on, the 6th definition caught my attention.  It read “use of intrigue or strategy in obtaining any position of power or control, as in business, university, etc.”

Of course, everyone has their own interpretation of things, but for me, politics is all about control.  And when you consider the traditional school system as being political, it seems as if they are trying to have control.  But control over what, or who?

Ever since I was in elementary school, I was taught history from one perspective. I’m sure you were too.  From what I hear, the private schools are even worse when it comes to the one-sided history books.  It’s clear that the “agenda” is real.

What agenda?

Well, I looked to again to properly dissect this.  The definition for agenda read “a list, plan, outline, or the like, of things to be done, matters to be acted or voted upon, etc.”.

Such a plan as the White Nationalist Movement a.k.a. the “White Agenda”.  Yes, contrary to the Black Lives Matter movement where advocates simply want to highlight that Black lives “matter”.  This movement stems from the ideology of White power and White supremacy.  It draws the misguided conclusion that White people are superior to Black people.  Thus, Black lives do not “matter” and are rather insignificant.

Distinctions between when someone/ something matters and when someone/ something does not matter.

I say all this to explain that the control that resides with the traditional school system has the power to dictate what matters and what does not matter.

Let’s use Black History Month as an example, considering the title of this post.

The shortest month of the year (February) nonetheless, we’ve come a long way from having not been acknowledged at all, to getting a week of recognition, and now a whole 28 days (give or take if it is a leap year).

During this time, we appreciate Black History.  Yes, Black History is also American History, but some how it is not treated as such.  Most of the history books in schools highlight slavery and only discuss Rev. Dr. Martin Luther King and Rosa Parks as Black icons when there is more to Black History than slavery and the Civil Rights Movement.  However, it seems that these moments in history are taught to constantly remind our children of how inferior we were and still are.

These days, it seems that Black lives are being more accepted because of all the injustice that has surfaced due to social media.  Without social media, people recording unjust situations on their phones and protesting to bring about change in the justice system, so many things would go unnoticed as they have in the past.

Who am I kidding?  There are still some things going unnoticed today.  Especially when officers have options to turn their cameras off or professional techies can be hired to alter quality camera footage.

But when people decide to challenge the system and bring awareness to racial issues, they are often ignored, met with excuses, or pushed back with no justification at all.  And we are left with angry hearts, confused faces, or diluted faith.  We…Black men, women, and children.

In Texas, students worked hard on a Black History Month mural only to be told to take down parts of it because it was “too political”.  Apparently “Black fists have nothing to do with Black History Month”.

Meanwhile, the students who worked on the mural felt that it expressed concerns emphasized in the Black Lives Matter movement and things they have been experiencing as a part of the Black community.

In Utah, students were initially afforded the opportunity to opt out of Black History Month activities.  Never thought I’d see the day, but I’m not surprised.  Of course, there was a lot of backlash with this one because, well, if they can opt out of learning Black History, can Black students opt out of the Whitewashed history that’s being taught? We already know the answer to that. Which is why the school changed its mind. 


In Wisconsin, students were given a history assignment in which they were asked how to properly punish a slave.  Yes, you read that correctly.  What a way to make Black students feel inferior in the classroom without trying to hide it at all.  How bold.

Not just one teacher asked this question.  It was a few and they were suspended.  But this led me to wonder if this was them following a curriculum that was already established, or did they really come up with this assignment collectively to send out to their middle school students? 

Either way, lack of cultural competency, ignorance, racism, and a bunch of factors can birth a situation like this.  Regardless, it is uncalled for and I’m fed up with this phrase “missed the mark” whenever something like this happens to our children.  There’s always a benefit of the doubt given along with “it wasn’t our intention” but nonetheless, our children are left traumatized and consequences are slim to none.

We have no control over how or what our children are taught in traditional school.  If we do not give them the proper foundation at home, they will naturally gravitate towards the spells of inferiority cast upon them deceitfully or become completely detached or withdrawn from themselves due to lack of knowledge that they descended from greatness.  Teach your children about how “Strong & Gifted” they really are because their school will not.

I Wonder …

I don’t even know how to begin this post.  The outrage I feel after watching a grown man throw a young girl to the ground ON HER HEAD has me lost for words.

If she were my child … Let me not even go there.

But seriously, this young girl had no weapons.  She didn’t even appear to have any shoes on!  He already had her hands behind her back!  What was the point of using such force?

Okay, supposedly there was a fight & she was angry. (GO FIGURE!)

See, this is the type of stuff that really gets me rattled.  Children are being taken out of their homes for being disciplined by their parents, but law enforcement has the right to handle our children any kind of way.  Really?

Then they have the nerve to highlight how remarkable he’s been over his 10yr career & mention how he’s never done anything like this before.

Are we really doing this as if his accolades & achievements have more value than her current state of mind right now?  This young girl & all of her peers are forever traumatized & now have another reason (as if they needed anymore) to fear or hate those who are supposed to protect them.

So what now?

Well, this guy is on PAID administrative leave (the usual) while the situation is investigated further (again, the usual).

I never understand how with US there’s always an investigation to be had when there is video evidence of what transpired.  But with THEM there can be a conviction with little to no evidence at all.

Now I’m not trying to play the “race card” but I am calling it like I see it.

Besides, with all the good they keep saying about him, you would think they’re trying to hide something.  I may be reaching, but really though…There’s no telling what else he’s done that may have gone under the radar because he didn’t get caught.

I’m just saying, he brought her down with zero hesitation.  Her head hit the concrete so hard, she stopped moving.

I wonder how long she lied there after the video was cut off.  I wonder if she was offered medical attention.  I wonder if her family was notified right away.  I wonder if her family has legal representation.  I wonder how much money is going to be offered to them for this situation to be patched up like the others.

Then we have the situation where a 9-year-old girl in New York was pepper sprayed by police officers after being handled by more than 3 of them at one time.

If I’m not mistaken, the child was screaming for her dad.  Instead of calming the young girl the officer acted very carelessly & had the audacity to tell her that she was “acting like a child”. 


Wait, I forget sometimes that many people do not view us as children once we are able to walk or talk.

We are such threats that we can’t be escorted to a police car without unnecessary force (even when innocent) like those who do not look like us have many times over, after shooting innocent people in churches and schools.  I also doubt they offered to take her to a fast-food restaurant to make sure she ate either.

(Reference to Dylan Roof; Charleston Church Shooting)

The tone in the officer’s voice was almost like he didn’t care to begin with and became easily fed up with a child who was clearly angry and afraid.

When the officers got her into the police car, she was handcuffed.  But somehow, she was still a threat to them, so they pepper sprayed her.  Even after she begged them not to (which she shouldn’t have had to do).

So many people (Black and White) are blaming the domestic violence dispute between the father and stepmother, as well as the child’s suicidal threats.  But neither justify the way this 9-year-old girl was handled by those whom she was taught in school to admire and respect. (This is one reason why I homeschool.)

I am not surprised that the brothers in blue are sticking together on this, as usual. I’m not against police officers but I am against those who abuse their power and have no regard for the lives our children.  And those who stand beside these punk officers without correcting their actions are the reasons why they feel they can get away with situations like this.

Suspension? Administrative leave?

I wonder if these officers will be fired. I wonder when new policies will be put in place to protect our youth. I wonder how this young girl felt in that very moment in the backseat of that police car. I wonder if her family has the funding necessary for a trauma counselor.  I wonder if the stepmother regrets dialing 9-1-1 for her emergency.  I wonder if the father feels guilty for not being able to come to his child’s rescue when she called for him. I wonder if this family will get paid off to simmer down the protests arranged for the system to be reformed.

I wonder.

Protect Black Love

It was one of those nights when I couldn’t sleep. I sat up in my bed with my phone in my hand staring at the cracked screen.

Browsing social media was boring after a few minutes and I had watched enough YouTube videos to give me a headache. I decided to put my phone on my nightstand and turn over to try and call it a night. But my mind had other plans.

No sooner than I rolled over and closed my eyes (after looking at my husband laying peacefully to the right of me) I felt inspired.

With all that had been going on in the media and news outlets shedding light on the injustice Black people face regularly, I felt compelled to address it from the perspective of Black Love.

See, no one really talks about the struggles of Black Love and how strong of a household you must be to stay afloat. There are so many homes that are ruined due to parents being incarcerated, killed, or separated in this “game” we call life.

Yes, that’s any household. But in Black households it is much higher, and, in most cases, the issues arise by a system designed for us to fail anyway. So, when I see real Black Love, it makes me smile.

I wrote a poem titled “Protect Black Love” in my notes on my phone in as little as 5 minutes. The words came so easily to me because this was something that I felt passionately about. I have been married four years strong and our Black Love relationship has seen many tests. Yet, we are still growing and thriving together.

In my humble opinion, there’s nothing sexier than a Black man. I have nothing against men of other ethnicities, and I am all for people loving whomever their hearts desire. But that Black Magic is a wonderful thing.

I have peers and family members who have dated and even married outside of their race and everything seems magical. I mean, we have progressed as a society. Especially with the new VP having an interracial family. It’s normal now and widely accepted. Or is it?

From the stares and awkward looks that people get when they’re with a significant other or spouse of a different race, to the comments made when children are in the mix. It’s ridiculous. And most of the time, it’s the family members of the opposing races.

I’ve seen so many fall outs with friends and other relationships on social media alone with the country being torn apart from the injustice that was never realized for some, while others were fed up and outraged that the verses in “We Shall Overcome” from the 1960s still ring true in 2021.

Thinking of what transpired in many bedrooms across America over this past year, I couldn’t imagine sleeping next to someone who could not relate and not share the same pain that I felt without me having to explain.

As a culture, we can often read each other’s minds and exchange words without speaking. I suppose it can happen the same way across ethnicities in relationships as it often does with best friends and co-workers who have spent a lot of time together.

But when I see photos being taken of a White girlfriend choking her Black boyfriend in a cotton field or a White husband trying to look for reasonable explanations to unjustly killings of Black men (not realizing that his Black wife gave birth to a Black son), I get really disturbed.

Nonetheless, it was always seen as a trophy for a Black man to marry a White woman. So many athletes and singers still believe so. I recall watching an interview on YouTube where Nick Cannon mentioned this as well.

Because of this ideology, I get upset when I look a John Legend, Taye Diggs and Kanye West. I am deeply in love with all their gifts, talents, and contributions to their communities. But I just get so mad when I see their wives.

Woman to woman, I respect them and want to see all women be great in a world where women are paid less to work just as hard or twice as hard as men. It’s just the stigma surrounding the connection that I must dispute in my mind repeatedly.

The same can be said the other way around as well. Eve, Serena Williams and Tika Sumpter all have me losing my mind when I see them with their White husbands.

Mind you, I still bump that Ruff Ryders’ First Lady album to this day, and I named one of my twins after one of the greatest tennis players (male or female) to ever pick up a racket. But in the back of my mind, I wonder what Black man put this beautiful Black woman through so much (whether he was negatively influenced by his environment or not) that she “chose” to fall in love with a White man.

I even think back to the times of slavery where the masters were very fond of the young Black women and their wives enjoyed watching Black men working hard on the plantations. It makes me sick!

But that is something that I am struggling to adapt towards as an individual. Like I have said, I am not against any forms of love. Obviously, real love is not a “choice” but rather destiny to be fulfilled. So, I respect and admire “true love” in all its beauty.

However, the allegiance of Black women and Black men is a bond that yields a strength that is unmatched when the two choose to commence. Just look at Jay-Z and Beyonce’, Will Smith and Jada Pinkett, Barack and Michelle Obama, Courtney Vance and Angela Bassett, Denzel and Pauletta Washington, Boris Kodjoe and Nicole Ari Parker, and DeVon Franklin and Meagan Good. Not to mention that so many of these power couples and marriages got it out the mud without any inheritance money or “Old Money” to back them up.

So, as I watched the commercials, movie castings and media images transform from all White families to interracial families, everyone was cheering while I was confused as to how interracial marriage received its glory before Black Love.

Am I doing the most? Maybe. Or, I could just have a different view from where you are sitting. Because, from my understanding, all the shows that modeled Black Love were flagged off back in the 90s and have only recently surfaced due to an uprising of Black Lives Matter and other movements surrounding injustice lately.

I could apologize for sounding so upset and bitter, but I won’t. Only because the truth is, I am not upset or bitter, but concerned. I am concerned that our Black children will fall so in love with a utopian mindset where we are all the same and are all treated fairly to the point where “The Talk” will no longer be necessary ate age 5. And the reality that we live in will not be a reality for them until they are innocently behind bars, hospitalized, or killed.

A young Black college student in Kansas was sentenced to 12 years in prison after being convicted for raping a White girl in Kansas. He did not have sex with her, there is no evidence of rape, and an all-White jury convicted him. I bet this young man never even thought something like this could happen to him. Yet, his life is ruined.

It is important that we teach ourselves and our children to love the skin we are in. Not only that, but educate them on past, present, and future situations where injustice has occurred and can occur. We wear the masks, the shirts and support Black businesses that are popular. But what happens when being Black is no longer trendy?

See, right now, for White folks, it’s almost as if having a Black partner or spouse gives you the “OK” to say certain things or a “receipt” to prove you’re not racist. But the system has not changed.

Your Black wife will still face death in the hospital for not receiving the best care because she is known to have a high tolerance of pain. GO FIGURE. And your Black husband will still get a higher sentence for a crime he may or may not have committed because he is a threat to a society built on the backs of his ancestors. GO FIGURE.

Why is it important that we Protect Black Love? Well, if we don’t see that Black Love requires protection, it will become endangered and lose value over time. And when something is not valued, it is often disposed of.


The Poem (Audio)

In this video Queen G uses poetry to unapologetically voice her position on Black love. Look forward to more poetic vibes relating to Black culture, family, and women in the future. 💪🏾❤️

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New Year, Same Agenda

I’ve questioned myself a million times “Why do you write?”

I recall doing writing prompts for state tests in elementary school and having my 3rd grade teacher tell me that I was a great writer.  At the time, I was pretty cocky already because at that age I felt like I was the smartest kid in the world.  Nonetheless, life takes over and reality set in when I was placed in a gifted program in the 4th grade.  

When you’re used to your surroundings it’s easy to be comfortable and feel immortal sometimes.  But the real challenges come when you are pulled out of the comfort of your own environment and forced to communicate with people who do not have the same background as you, and therefore they don’t think like you.

So, there I was…Coming from an elementary classroom where my peers were predominately Black and Hispanic to a middle school classroom where I was the ONLY minority.  These kids were talking about mind benders, stocks, medieval times, and a bunch of stuff that went over my head.  I was so out of place.  I thought to myself, “Damn, I thought I was smart, but these kids are smart-smart.”  I eventually quit because I couldn’t stand it.

Fast forward to when I attended middle school for real and my whole world was just a mess.  From my hormones as a pre-teen to me battling some personal demons, I had lost my juice.  I no longer felt as smart as I once felt.  I did enough to pass (which was still great now that I’m looking back on it).  But I know that I could’ve done so much better.

High school was even worse.  I barely applied myself and still became a part of the National Honor Society.  But I would often wonder how.  I never felt that I deserved any of the accolades that came my way.

College was the same way.  I attended an HBCU (Historically Black College/ University) and graduated summa cum laude.  Still, I felt that I could do more than I had done.  My peers would often congratulate me, and I appreciated the support, but it made me even more upset.

Let me put this in a simpler perspective.  In environments where I was among my own (minorities) I was intelligent without even fully applying myself.  But in an environment where I was among others (majorities) I was barely scratching the surface of their definition of intelligence.  It bothered me a lot.  Until this past year, I was still frustrated about it.

So, what changed?

Well, after getting married, having 3 children, and quitting my job to spend more time with them, I also had more time to think.  My thoughts weren’t always pleasant (I’m still a work in progress) but I did come to the realization that I was caught up in a web of feeling worthless due to that instance in elementary school and many more instances where a White child/adult was viewed as more superior.  Not to mention how all the history books are written.  Better yet, the history books that they spoon feed to us before we’re even able to read on our own.

But when I decided to home school my oldest child, I made a vow to myself that I would not pass that feeling of inferiority to her or my younger daughters.  And to be sure that I kept my promise, I had to dig deep within myself and fix my way of thinking.

Truth is, I’ve always had a certain confidence about myself on the surface.  But underneath, I was always wondering if I was good enough.  Now, I don’t even wonder.  Especially when it comes to my writing.

There is no code to writing when you write with feeling and from experience.  No one can tell you that you’re wrong if you have an opinion different from someone else. 

There is no right or wrong answer in a poem.  My short stories or novels belong to me.   No standardized test, degree or any other accolade can define the amount of effort I put into my craft or the emotion that drives me to publish my work.

Why do I write?

Maybe because it is natural for my thoughts to come out on a page as opposed to me stumbling over my words with my tongue pushing against the gap in my teeth as I try to find the right words to say.

When I write, I’m not thinking about what anyone else feels but me.  If you vibe with it, that’s cool.  If not, that’s cool too.   Writing is my outlet.  Writing is my escape from every thought or situation that told me I was not good enough.

When I write, I am who I am, unapologetically.  And as a Black woman, wife, and mom, I will continue to write my truths and encourage others to only look within themselves for acceptance and nowhere else.

It’s a new year, but I have the same agenda.  I am going to write, and write, and write to save myself, my husband, my children, and you from any negativity that makes you feel like you can’t, because you can.

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